Identity crisis

I'm facing a crisis. 

I changed dept, yet it still doesn't feel right . I just can't do desk bound work. I'll doze off in the middle of what I'm doing cos it's just so boring!!! What am I gonna do????

And I'm so upset with having just 7 days of leave left till next year April. 

I miss sgh. :(

The freedom I had. And the sense of empowerment and satisfaction at the end of every day.

When will I ever be happy??? I want to feel as though I'm doing something meaningful. Something which will be impactful and will actually make a difference in someone's life. I need help!!! :*(

But I'm definitely not depressed or suicidal. Just need some time to sort out my thoughts. Till then...