Should I stay?

My heart is telling me to leave my job now. But my brain says no. :(

Work has been crazily stressful. First, I got very bad gastric attack. Then, I had an arthritis relapse scare. What next? Heart failure? Highly likely given I panic more than a thousand times a day. :(

I know this job is NOT for me. But it's good learning, and I get to travel on discounted rate. Then again, so what right?

What should I do? What's ideal is for me to leave now since the notice period is only 2weeks. Then get my health back, and start looking for a job again. The only thing tiny pull back factor is that I'm currently working in my favourite place in Singapore, the airport. This opportunity is so difficult to come by! Damn. :(

I know what is for me. I need people's interaction. And not face the computer one whole day. I can go without talking in the office. :( I don't like it. HOW???? If I leave now, am  I taking the easy way out? Can someone enlighten me please?

I miss running.

I'm very sad to say, my exercise regime has gone down drastically. :(((

Even my tummy is getting bigger and bigger each day. My complexion has turned quite bad, and my hair is going haywire. 

I WANNA START RUNNING AGAIN!!!! :( 

New working envt

1 word to summarize. TOUGH.

Work is so difficult!!! What have I been doing for the past few years? Life was so easy back then!!! omg. It's like a massive wake up call. The world is not so easy after all.

But glad I get to meet nice people on my job. There are some pricks whom my friend mentioned, but I've yet to meet them. So wish me good luck.

I really want my new job to work out though. We shall see....

2013

Looking back, 2013 has been a challenging and exciting year.

The most exciting ones are:

1. I got a new job (starting in feb 2014).
2. I went for star award and had a pic with Qi Yuwu!!!! My fav mediacorp actor. :)))
3. I made a lot of new random friends.
4. I learnt the ukelele!
ERM, that's about it. Okay not very eventful. Work was damn drama though.But appreciate my clerks more! Thanks to them, I managed to last for so long. 2.5yrs is no easy feat for a boring job.

Anyway, all my resolutions are NOT met for 2013. For 2014, I hope more will be done.

1. LOSE MY BLOODY TUMMY!!! my tummy is not bloody. But it's bulging. Damn gross.
2. Run 21km with ease. Signed up for Sundown already. If all goes well, I wanna do stan chart 21km too!
3. Climb Mt Rinjani! I should have gone with Wendy when I had the chance last year. But hope i'll find someone to go with me!
4. Be healthy! Not take MC in my new job. I've got a friend who has never taken MC in his entire life. Gonna do the same for my new job. But my main is to be healthy!
5. Do well for my new job! I really like the new company. So hope all goes well!
6. Go to London and watch Arsenal/ Chelsea play!!! Hope scoot someday will fly to London!!!
7. Stop being so picky. Told BFF, I'll go out with the first guy who ask me out this year. hee. It was actually him (my bff). But he said not counted.
8. Be nice to everyone. I've been too pissy this year. The IT team in my dept branded me as a nasty bitch. haha! What a name!
9. Volunteer! Not doing it anytime soon as I wanna be more settled with work first. Hopefully there's smt corporate.
10. Don't be so action. HAHA. I shall stop acting I'm so cool and go to clubs and pubs. I hate those places!!! But I just go cos it seems so cool. NO MORE. (unless if there's any special occasions.)
11. Be happy! Seems easy, but no!!! cos I'm always comparing why others have it better than me. That's why I've stopped following bloggers. I always thought they are so lucky to be pretty, smart, popular etc. But compare for what? Compare already I more sian. So, STOP COMPARING, and be contented.

Okay that's it! Pretty ambitious I must say. By the way, my 2014 goes by the lunar calendar. HAHA. cos I already broke a resolution (no.4. I took MC when I came back from Shanghai. hehe. )

My early birthday celebration!!!

Had a really good birthday celebration on fri!!! I made BFF donate blood on my behalf. Iron too low. :( The HSA lady, whom I presume is a doctor, was so nice! She gave me a food coupon anyway. It's for people who donated blood. U made my day, dr grace leong!

With my "birthday cake" in hand, we went for seafood!!!! My all time fav food in the world! :)))

Thanks for the birthday treat BFF!!! But I still want my bangawan solo cake!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had a blast today for Saha's and my birthday celebration!!! Hers is today, and mine is 2 weeks later. Cos I dunno how to spend my birthday in Singapore, I'm going to be in KOREA!!! How awesome... 

Special thanks to Sam, aka Lingerfinger for my complimentary red velvet cake! I LOVE it. :)))))

Apart from today's birthday celebration, my life is absolutely spinsterish.
But I"m fine, cos I'm too lazy to go out.

On of the greatest gift (seems wrong) my ex gave, was the joy of watching soccer and F1!!!
I'm never bored on a sat night anymore!!! 

kayz back to soccer. 

Die Man u DIE. 

But they're not. :( 

Likdat how to run???

First a stalker, then a flasher. Now a swollen foot. God really don't want me to be running.

Sian... Getting fatter each day. Kenna asked if I'm pregnant again!!! and and, I'm overweight, according to my waist hip ratio. I may look skinny. But deep down, I believe I've clogged up arteries!

But how to exercise?!!! And everyday still gorge like crazy. :/ heck... Diet tomorrow...

Wedding gathering!

Michelle and Guan Tat were so nice to organize another meetup to thank the "xiong di" and "jie mei"! First time I had such meetup! Though slightly awkward, the company was great. I haven't had such a big gathering since Pam's bday! What an experience.

The food was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee too! I've always loved Ban Leong Seafood! Price was rather reasonable. $400+++ for 15 people.

Thanks for the dinner!!!

I was soooooooo happy that day! Cos I finally watched the mousetrap! That totally deserves another post. I shall do that soon!!! hee.

Anyway, a little about today. I was sooooooooooooo down! (okay I tend to exaggerate a lot). I didn't get to eat lunch with my friend (that sounds childish, but lunch is the ONLY thing I look forward to at work). But my colleagues totally made my day! What will I do without them???

Jaded

It's oct already and I'm still the same as I was in Jan. What happened to my resolution??? Did I live this year in vain?

Tummy still so big. And also not much development intellectually. WHAT A LOSER....

I still love veg food!

As the title says it, I love my zai mi fen! It's from the tiong baru stall in front of a monkey temple. Love it! The zai mi fen uncle made good recommendations! (See the mushroom spring roll).

The drinks stall uncle is damn cute too. He demanded the BFF to be a gentleman and pay for me! Hee. And thanks to him, I got a free lunch treat! Yay!

P.s. Actually BFF alr intended to treat. :)

Michelle's wedding!

22nd sept is TatnChele's big day!!! 

Both of them are my sec sch mates. 

So happy for them! :)))

 Michelle was so pretty yesterday!

I love her day hairdo! 

 I'm very honoured to be a jiemei!

Though I didn't do much. hee!

Guan Tat! He was my sec 1 &2 classmates.

He used to be sooooooooo short and naughty. 

Now, he has become a real man. HAHA!

 Mini YTSS reunion? haha! I don't remember the 2 guys on the left. 

Lovely wedding!!!

and I LOVE the food at Man Fu Yuan, Intercontinental.

CONGRATS TO MICHELLE AND GUAN TAT!!!

10 YEARS TOGETHER IS AMAZING!!!

HAVE A BLISSFUL MARRIAGE!

btw, just found out that I've FOUR weddings next year, in NOV... 

Day 17,18,19

Day20:
I GIVE UP. :(((

Sad to say, I cannot be a vegetarian. I feel so weak, and I'm sick! Haven't felt so sick in ages. :((( Fever, sore throat, cough. :(((

I don't think it has anything to do with being vegetarian (cos I had so much fried stuff a few days back). But my body is not used to the lack of meat. Guess that's why my resistance to germs is so low.

Even though I've conceded, I'll try to be more vegetarian in my diet by having more non-meaty stuff.

Next step to my diet, I wanna #eatclean. But for now, I just wanna get well.

Day 16!

I haven't been so happy during weekdays. Cos I'm not at work! On course!!! Haven't had so much fun in a while!
Yup still managed to keep up with my veg diet. Had YTF and cesar salad, without the bacon bits. Still surviving. 2 more weeks! yay.

Family dinner

Cos I love the food at bespoke, I made my family eat there for dinner! We love the food!!! Yummy. :)

Thanks family for eating with me! So glad u guys are supportive!

P.s. Steven went too! He was the one who took the pic.

Happy belated birthday Val!

Met Val today at tampines! Watched ilo ilo. I love it!!! It's a little too artsy, but it's an arts film. I can relate to the show! I had 4 maids. Like them all!

The boy can act! So touching at the end. Love his buck teeth!

Gave Val something very practical for her bday! Totally know what she needs. :))) glad she likes it!

We then shopped like mad! Spent a bomb! Dinner was at ding tai feng. There is vegetarian stuff!! Good for me!

Happy that arsenal won!!! Happier I had company to watch with!!! Thanks to the bfs (not mine. Hahah! )

Super tired and not coherent... Night!

Friday the 13th

And it's the 13th day of my vegetarian diet!

Today's dinner was AWESOME! My NTU psy mates treated me to dinner at Bespoke, at Sunshine plaza. I love how my friends accommodate my vegetarian needs! THANK U!

We had:

- Unagi sushi

- Hiyaki fried rice

- Hot pot

- Cheese mushroom

- Tomato popiah 

So awesome... 

I overate again!!! At about 5pm, I had LingerFinger's banana walnut cake (my all time fave!!!) and a famous tiong baru market lian yong bau. My colleagues are so nice!!! Specially bought vegetarian snacks for me! :)))

Time to balance healthy diet with exercise!!! 

Sick

Too much fried.
I'm so sick of food!!! Esp goreng pisang.

But I've got to say, my mom cooks the best food!!! She made dried laksa today! Vegetarian style, of cos! :)

I don't wanna think about food for the next 12hrs. Time to sleep!

Fave restaurant

I went to zi zai vegetarian restaurant @ yishun blk 236 with my ytss friends today and I love that place!!!! Awesome zi char food!!!

I love their butter prawns dish! Vegetarian zi char can be just as awesome!

Thanks friends for sacrificing meat for me!!!

And thank u BFF for buying me mee hun kuek for lunch. I didn't eat a single piece of meat. All given to my BFF!

Day 11 complete! Yay!

Can't wait for breakfast tml! Thanks ms Lingerfinger!

Day 10!

No pictures as today was mad busy. Even lunch was a rush!

Brekkie was egg sandwich. Then I had Prata for lunch. Goreng pisang for tea ( unhealthy!!! :( ) and noodles for dinner!

Tried running today but I had no energy! Practically just bounced around. That's bad!!! Gotta rmb to eat something before running next time!

At work, today was a rather good day!

1. Managed to resolve 2 complains
2. A patient's friend said I look cheerful and hospital needs people like me!
3. I managed to speak to a doctor without stammering!!! I get nervous when I speak to doctors who sound super confident over the phone. But dunno why I was so pro this time! Can even joke with the doctor! Hee! Yay to confidence!

Day 9???

I've began to lose track of the days. Vegetarian diet has become a way of life! wow.

 Chee Kuek! My Sunday breakfast!

 Zai mee fen. OMG so sick of it. 

I don't wanna eat it every again. 

 My teabreak! From Lingerfinger! 

Then today... 

 Coffee and Lui Sa Bao!!! 

Love the explosive yellow egg yolk. YUMZ

 Lunch! Rice. Finally!!! 

And so happy today my BFF at work is finally back!!! 

Dinner! My mom makes the most awesome food in the world!

Olive friend rice!!! Superb!!!! 

p.s. I don't quite like taking food pictures.

Cos I don't do justice to the food. 

Shall end of with a picture from Kelvin's wedding!

He looks so good! :))) 

Kelvin is one of the nicest guy I met from work. 

Happy to be part of the wedding. 

Congrats once again, Kelvin!